Last year started off pretty awesomely with an amazing trip with Big Brother to Chico followed by another fun trip to Ione. However, then I had a miscarriage and my world fell apart. I have never felt a pain as great or as deep. I felt as though I was left with a gaping hole in my being for a very long time. It was hard for me to feel like anything was real anymore and there wasn't (hasn't been) a day that has gone by that I haven't thought about the baby that we didn't have last year. It doesn't hurt the same way anymore and for that alone, I am ready to face a new year.
We did many great things last year and spent time with so many people that we love and who love us. For me, everything happened with a huge dark cloud hanging over, sometimes enveloping me and sometimes farther off in the distance. Riding was one of the few ways I could get out from under my depression. Off the bike, it would creep back filled with fear and insecurities.
I'm ready for this year and I'm ready to continue moving in the direction life takes me.
I've decided to use this photo to represent my entire 2013 because to me, it signifies strength and adventure--two things that I look forward to having more of this year.
We did many great things last year and spent time with so many people that we love and who love us. For me, everything happened with a huge dark cloud hanging over, sometimes enveloping me and sometimes farther off in the distance. Riding was one of the few ways I could get out from under my depression. Off the bike, it would creep back filled with fear and insecurities.
I'm ready for this year and I'm ready to continue moving in the direction life takes me.
I've decided to use this photo to represent my entire 2013 because to me, it signifies strength and adventure--two things that I look forward to having more of this year.
Happy New Year!
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